Dear Aishwarya, Navraj and Sahajiya
I know anxiety is very common between us all. I am anxious too. After getting anxious, I won’t be able to do anything. I know you all are also hanging around your doors and windows and why not, it is the only point that connects the inseparable two worlds. I try a lot to forget about the situation we are in, but can’t do anything is the pain I am carrying within.
Yesterday, I was sitting near my main door and looking. It has this hole in it. I looked through it and tried to escape. Most of the time there is a saree hanging on that rope and with a little touch of a wind it flows. I feel those smooth and unstable waves inside me. I almost escaped through it but then just like the end in this my focus had shifted. I again found myself sitting on the chair near the door. Trying to escape again but this time through my window.
I have these small pots at the edge of my window. They were gifts that I bought for my mother on her birthday. She loves to have a garden but we can’t have much space. These days she is at home with me. She takes care of these pots like a baby she took care of me. It was pretty amazing to watch this Dandelion seed sitting next to the Syngonium plant. It reminds me of the relation of a mother and a child. And the nurturing that goes on. When we have no place we choose nature to hide. Let’s stay close to it and the creatures on the other side. I hope they still look for us and realize that we are alive.
I have been drifting around to these places in search of you. Where do I find you? I have no clue. I hope
you all will keep on trying to escape through the peephole, doors and window. The day will come soon
when we all cross borders between these two worlds.