I wanted to capture the gist before its physical appearance or despite its physical appearance. The desperate need to still look at its soul without considering if it’s torn or old. I wanted to get involved with the flower so much that I wanted to forget what other flowers looked like. The need to believe that only this is the reality and everything else is not. And since I found satisfaction in focussing over such parts, it often leads to abstraction or distortion of images. Hence the abstract black and white patterns.I critically believe if this subject was taught back then when i was born or there was more awareness regarding “normalcy”, it would have been a better world. Anxiety and depression or many other important issues comes in handy. It’s important for us to create awareness even though there is much more information available to assist people with mental illness, there’s still a dogma attached to it. There are so many people I have met who feel uncomfortable in sharing their stories because they have the fear of being left out or being called out names.